With coronavirus forcing us all inside, we’ve become even more dependent on technology, if that’s at all possible. Classes and work have primarily shifted online, deteriorating my already poor focus. Moreover, with nothing to do besides stay inside all day (save my daily run), I’ve gotten used to picking up my phone again and again and again. Without so much as a second thought, I reach down to that 5-inch escape from my daily life, indulging my imagination through games or putting my mind at ease with some Netflix or sating my need for information with the latest COVID-19 facts and figures. It’s become an extension of my hand, a constant companion in the face of today’s uncertainty.
“Your screen time was up 27% this week, for an average of 6 hours, 10 minutes.”
“Your screen time was up 25% this week, for an average of 4 hours, 51 minutes.”
“Your screen time was up 31% this week, for an average of 3 hours, 42 minutes.”
I’ve gotten all too comfortable with these kinds of notifications lately (Yes, these are my screen time notifications from the past three weeks.) I’ll be staring at my phone on a leisurely Sunday morning in my bed, because what else can I do in bed besides look at my phone? “Your screen time was up…” and I stop reading. I know, I get it. It’s not my fault. If I could hang out with my friends or actually be in class, I wouldn’t be on my phone this much! Plus, my phone habits will go back to normal whenever this is all over.
But here’s the thing: They won’t. And even if they do, my old “normal” was still an addiction. I’ve often grappled with the idea of being addicted to technology: I try to rationalize that it’s not an addiction if everyone acts the same way. And on general principle, it scares me that something so small and innocuous holds such a stranglehold over my life and my behavior. In the past year, approximately 20% of my life has been dedicated to Steve Jobs’ brainchild. What has that fifth of my life brought me? Sure, there are some texts and calls which have been invaluable for both professional purposes and keeping up with friends and family.
Besides that, however, it’s been a constant stream of instant gratification: crowdsourcing my self-esteem through Instagram likes, Retweets validating my wit, Snapchat notifications reminding me I’m someone worth keeping in touch with. Every one of those notifications hits my brain and spurs a dopamine rush, tethering me further to my phone.

That’s not to mention the information overload. I liken the information on my phone to a flood. Initially, the first few factual raindrops refresh my brain, giving it the nutrients necessary for enrichment and survival. The marginal returns diminish significantly after those first couple drops, however. My brain becomes flooded by the colossal rainwaters of incessant information, with each little piece trying to find a home in my brain but displaced by the utter lack of room. Yet, since there’s nowhere else to go, it stays within my brain, muddying its waters and weakening the roots of the other knowledge already ingrained.
It’s weird: Phones have never been more necessary for survival or entertainment than the past few weeks, and yet I’ve never been more wary of them. Each time I grab my phone, I get the same sense of satisfaction and relief as always. Alongside those emotions, however, I now experience a sharp pang of guilt. I know that with weeks and potentially months of little to do, there’s an implicit responsibility to battle this dissonance. But why try if it’s a losing battle?
This requires a finer examination of the term “losing”. I don’t expect to eliminate phone usage, as it’ll remain a part of my daily life. I’m no technophobe; I recognize my phone’s importance to participating as a member of my local and global communities and staying up to date on important information. How about all those mindless reaches for my phone? Or deriving a disproportionate amount of my self-worth from what people think of me online?
Thankfully, I have a plan to combat these pitfalls: intentionality. If I can ask myself “Why?” before doing anything on my phone and have a valid answer, then it’s worth using my phone. Hopefully, however, I can catch myself when I’m using my phone simply for the sake of using it. The thought of slowly reclaiming these aimless parts of my days provides hope in an otherwise uncertain time. Even if I can’t control the world around me, I can at least control a little more of my own life.









After a friend came upstairs to WU’s main level with a burger, I was surprised—there are no burger places in WU! Well, per the usual, I was wrong. Downstairs, hidden behind some doors stood The Devil’s Krafthouse.
